It'd be easier if I could just trash CoE. I might change my mind on rewatching, but while it was in many ways pure sadism, the way we were - maybe up until the end of ep.3 - deceived that this was going to be more or less normal Torchwood fare, until the sheer monstrosity of the plot unfolds and the tearing-down begins, and while there are obviously a lot of things that completely piss me off about Ianto's death, the whole thing wasn't, IMO, bad as such.

I wish I weren't so torn up about this - on the one hand I loved this show so much, even when I criticised it; I still remember how S2 kept me sane in the post-Christmas depression one and a half years ago, how I was looking forward to each episode, and I'm so angry that this is all gone now, that I'm on the verge of tears again. Now walking through Salzburg, up the Möchsberg with Dead Souls on my iPod, or lying in bed, listening to The Dead Line, barely a couple of weeks ago, will now be my last stupidly happy fangirl memories of that show, not completely overshadowed by the tragedy and utter bleakness of the end.

OTOH... the Jack in CoE is from the first to the last exactly Jack how I'm seeing him, and his arc has perfect inner logic, just like the state of Jack/Ianto was almost exactly how I was seeing it after S2, and every scene between them in CoE was spot-on and touching, moving the relationship just a little further and actually developing it instead of all the experimentation and improvisations in seasons 1 and 2. Until it's nipped in the bud, which brings me back full circle to being completely pissed off. But there were enough episodes in S1 and S2 that left me at least a bit baffled as far as characterisation, relationship continuity and such were concerned, and this was never the case here. As much as I hate to say it, mostly I'm on RTD's page, even while I want to hit him with the book. Repeatedly and hard.

And sadism or no sadism, to create something with such an emotional impact... that's not nothing. And it's not quite the gratuitous killing purely for shock value (is there a word for Effekthascherei?) that Joss Whedon is much too fond of either, there is more coherency and logic here.


*sigh*

I kind of suspect I'll be defriended by the non-TW-related half of my flist for being completely crazy, and by the rest for being a bad fan in the near future.