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30 Days of Torchwood: Day 09: A Scene That Made You Cry

This one is easy, if only because I very, very rarely cry over TV or movies any more. I used to be a lot more emotional when I was younger, but these days the only thing that still consistently makes me cry (or at least still did the last time I rewatched it) is the Babylon 5 finale Sleeping in Light, although that really might be because at this point the tears are more or less conditioned.

I do vaguely remember sniffing a bit at the end of Exit Wounds, but it's CoE, really, although not any specific scene.

I was on holiday when CoE aired, with an internet connection so slow that downloading wasn't an option, so I stayed away from absolutely anything that might possibly spoil me (i.e., livejournal in general) and downloaded it all when I came home nine days later.

Right up until the end of Day Three I still thought I'd be watching the next two episodes the next evening. It was good, very good in fact, I thoroughly enjoyed it, but it was still 'normal' TW. The revelation at the end of Day Three made it impossible not to keep watching, never mind it already was past midnight, but it still wasn't wholly unexpected. Between Fragments and Adrift and the Golden Age audioplay with its 'I was only obeying orders', which unlike Ianto I thought was completely believable, I already thought there might be all kinds of things lurking in Jack's Torchwood past, ready to come back to haunt him. Ianto's death was... I'm not going to say expected, because it wasn't. But looking at my post about the audioplays, there are shades of premonition. Not expected, but dreaded, on some subonscious level, I guess. Denial more than surprise, maybe. I was sad and kind of stunned, but there still were no tears. Day Five, however, went to places that I didn't expect. Day Five is the part of the story that I'm still struggling to find words for.

At the end of it all I burst into tears and sat in front of the computer for an hour and simply couldn't stop crying. The sense of loss was so overwhelming; Jack's loss of course, but on a more personal level also the feeling of having lost in the space of five hours a show I really loved a lot. I think RTD said somewhere that he was writing a story that would also work as an ending in case there would be no further TW, and it very much felt like that to me at the time. I couldn't even imagine a next season, although the moment they started talking about the possibility I also wanted to see this fixed in canon. (Jack making an appearance in TEoT already did help, at least a little.)

I've rewatched CoE three times now, and I can write about it in a more detached and analytical fashion, but I've never had a movie or TV show (or book, at that) hurt me this much. I do, on some level, understand why people hated CoE. I guess I was lucky enough to like the story.

And apparently I still need to talk about this, after a year and a half. *sigh*

Day 01: Favourite Torchwood Member
Day 02: Least Favourite Torchwood Member
Day 03: Favourite Series
Day 04: Favourite Episode
Day 05: Least Favourite Episode
Day 06: Something You Liked That Most People Didn't
Day 07: Favourite Alien/Villain
Day 08: Favourite Minor Character
Day 09: A Scene That Made You Cry
Day 10: A Scene That Made You Smile
Day 11: A Scene That Made You Angry
Day 12: Favourite Quote
Day 13: Favourite Promo Picture
Day 14: Favourite Couple
Day 15: Favourite Couple Scene
Day 16: Favourite Piece of Music
Day 17: Something You’d Like To Re-write
Day 18: Character You Relate To The Most
Day 19: Favourite Outfit
Day 20: Favourite Gwen Moment
Day 21: Favourite Ianto Moment
Day 22: Favourite Jack Moment
Day 23: Favourite Owen Moment
Day 24: Favourite Toshiko Moment
Day 25: Shag/Cliff/Marry?
Day 26: A Torchwood Geek Moment You’ve Had
Day 27: Favourite Location Or Set
Day 28: Where You Think The Series Should Continue To
Day 29: Best Torchwood on Doctor Who Moment
Day 30: Why You Love Torchwood


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Jan. 6th, 2011 02:14 pm (UTC)
CoE would be the choice for me too, although it was Day 4 that did it. Nothing has ever hit me like Ianto's death (and I say that as a Buffy fan). Oddly enough, it almost helped me when it came to Day 5, because I was so numb already - Day 5 didn't make me cry, it just shocked me, since it is horrific on such a completely different scale... Sometimes I still have to almost pinch myself to make sure that RTD actually went there!

But, like you, it felt like the death of the show. I'm looking forward to S4, but it'll be a new thing. Not my Torchwood.

Edited at 2011-01-06 02:14 pm (UTC)
Jan. 6th, 2011 04:56 pm (UTC)
I don't know why Ianto's death didn't effect me quite as much. Maybe I was too caught up in the rest of the story, maybe watching one episode after the other I didn't give myself time to let it really sink it in. I even remember a faint hope that it might not be final, after all. Stupid, I know... I didn't cry during D5 either, only when the credits started rolling. And it definitely did affect me, because I still get irrationally angry and defensive when people call it stupid or meaningless or unheroic, but for some reason it didn't make me cry. Weird brain is weird.

D5... Everything you say. I really need to finally finish the second part of The Writer's Tale; I only got as far as RTD angsting about not knowing what to do with D5 and not wanting to use the story he thought he could turn into an entire new show for it... to which I can only say, it was worth it.
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