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*sigh* Business as usual. I should be doing a lot of things, but end up paralysed, procrastinating a lot, and constantly feeling guilty, guilty, guilty. At least made it through another 40 pages of my Excel book today. Still haven't done any Russian homework, though, and I really should be studying more intensively to prepare myself for the two weeks in July... On a more self-indulgent note, there are a couple of things I'd like to write, but rewatching anything is pretty much out of the question right now, and my mind is so tied up in the struggle between avoidance mode, guilt, and panicked should-do-that-s that I'm completely incapable of focusing on anything. Pathetic, I know.

Anyway. A few pictures from yesterday's walk that started in Hütteldorf and ended up in Mauer six hours later, because to complicate things even further, my body is apparently conspiring with the avoidant part of my brain and keeps insisting it wants to spend a lot of time outside & moving... Partly it was a bit meh, but the evening was just lovely; the first two photos give a bit of an impression, but obviously there's no way to really convey the mood of it all, coming out of the darkness of the forest into the meadow, walking up the hill into the light of the evening sun low over the trees, the smell of earth and mown grass, all the scents stronger towards evening; the stillness, peace and momentary solitude, until you reach the top of the hill and see a couple with their two dogs and realise you're not quite aone after all...

In a way I'm dissatisfied with my photos, because they're always too... smoothly, and I'm almost tempted to say, superficially, beautiful. I'd like to do something a bit... rawer, I guess, more realistic, with more life in it, but I just don't know how. In the end that's probably not me, I suppose. The problem is my life, not my photography. Still, though, I wish I could just do a little better. Maybe I should take a class to really study the technical aspects; perhaps that would help. But see above—really no time right now.


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Lotusland Fine Art [lotuslandfineart.com]
Jun. 13th, 2011 02:35 pm (UTC)
Those are lovely scenes.

Have you tried photographing people? Maybe street photography will give you some of the edginess you are looking for.
Jun. 14th, 2011 02:46 pm (UTC)
I've thought about that, but the problem is that I'm terrible with people, and I'm just too shy to just snap pictures of people in the street...
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Jun. 14th, 2011 02:40 pm (UTC)
This entry made me forget, for a moment, that I am sitting at my desk at work.

Thank you.

You're (as always) very welcome! :) And that's the most important thing really, that they mean something to others. Thank you.
Jun. 13th, 2011 04:22 pm (UTC)
Of course you should explore other kinds and styles of photography, and I'm sure you will, but, speaking only for myself, I would not change a thing. I love love love your pictures, they are like little oases of happy and beautiful and peaceful and thoughtful whenever you post them.
Jun. 14th, 2011 02:35 pm (UTC)
Dankeschön! :) It's not that I don't like them... *sigh* it's just that they're never quite what I want. I used to be easier satisfied when I first got the camera and was just exploring with it; after all this time I get more and more self-critical and it feels like I'm a bit stuck...

Anyway, it makes me happy that you like seeing them!
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